Today I am very ‘Happy’!

Today I am Very Happy.

Life has been quite busy since last one year. There has been lots of turbulence, doldrums and ups and downs. In one word it had all the drama and the emotions. Office and work was challenging and at the same time very interesting. But at the personal side of the life there has been a lot of pressure. Family, health, friends, carrier and love and life! At times it seems quite difficult. When I looked up there was no one, literally no one. A battle fought standing alone. There was support, but at far distant. There were hands to hold but the reach was not enough. So a grueling battle continued for a long time and finally I along with all my loved ones was able to come out of the misery of the pain and adversities. From nowhere I managed to find some resolute strength within me which helped me through that passage of time.

But even then things did not look very pretty as nothing was certain. There was an uncanny sense of anxiety all through out. I was hoping that we all recover from it as quickly as possible before the next dawn. And finally it happened. I found Him or He found me. That was also long due. I saw him or rather listened to Him for the first and only time (before now) in Two Thousand Two. That was more like a glimpse. But that itself was enough to leave behind an everlasting impact and so it had to happen sometime. And it could not have come to me at a better time than this.

That day itself I learned to remain happy even during the darkest of hours.

But that was not all of it. Could not be. I knew that and I wished He also knows that. And sure He knew too! It was a matter of time. He changed me. He did not try to do it in the first day. It happened gradually. Not during the first course. Not fully during the next course. But at the third time it all opened like a flood gate. It blown me away, not brainwashed. Because with time I learned to accept it. That came with His blessings or at the form of His blessings. Because of that I am changed today, for better. I know how to deal with things better now; I know how to be happy always. And it’s because of His teachings few months back while I was back home; I could talk to my parents like never before. I completely opened up and thus helped my parents to know more about me. I could have never realized unless, that the moment I had grown up; I have actually started to drift away from my parents, their feelings. I never shared my lies and happiness with them, I did not worry about much what they think or want, I could never gave them a hug or say, ‘I love you Ma! I love you Baba!’ How I wish how much they wished for all these.

But now things have started to change. As I told I was more open. I could easily share my secrets with them; I could say them all the things that I wanted to. And they listened to all of those very patiently and closely. It felt like I was close to them again. I am sure irrespective of how uncomfortable it was for them to know about my habits, crushes and secrets right from my own mouth, they would have felt much better at the end of it. But still I could not say to them, ‘I love you Ma! I love you Baba!’

And so I wanted them to experience the same. I was all the while praying to Him that, ‘Please! Please! Make them come to You they way I have seen it. Let them feel the same.’ And there was instant help. One of my aunty who herself was a teacher came for help. She spoke to my parents. When I asked them to go for the course, they agreed but it could have taken some more time. But with the help of that teacher, I am sure it became much easier. I wanted them to go and do the course, because it was very much required for them. Anxiety, Tension, Stress and Loneliness were their daily accompanies, in spite of all my attempts. They needed Him.

Yesterday when they called up I spoke to them for little over fifteen minutes. Normally it will last for 1-3 minutes maximum knowing about each others health status and at times few new updates. But yesterday I spoke to them about the technique they are going to learn, they experience they are going to have. And it was wonderful. They joined the course.

Today they are going to experience all of it. He has come to them now. Now I pray let this be a journey traveled together forever where they will find the complete peace and happiness. And now I am ready to say, ‘I love you Ma! I love you Baba!’

Today I am very very very Happy!

Thank you Guruji!!!